Spidey sense activated
I have a tingle that the cancer is coming back. In late December I had a strong “feeling” that the Cometriq was working, and then about two weeks later we learned that, yes indeed, it was working. Well, I hope I’m wrong this time because I have a “feeling” that the cancer is growing again. I don’t want to alarm anyone. I just had a doctor’s appointment a few days ago and all seemed good. I mostly just wanted to post this so that I could look back and go, “aha! See I was right!” and I’d feel cool about that.
Worst Morning of my Life
On Thursday, February 6th, 2020 I woke up very early (or rather decided to stop trying to sleep) and felt terrible. Like, for reals. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt so uncomfortable in my life. Excruciating pain in my upper body, nausea, upset stomach, dizzy, tired, itchy all over, zero appetite. I had to force some food into my mouth so I could stomach taking the oxy. THEN the mental side kicked in and I was full of panic and anxiety wondering, “will it always be this bad…?”
I felt better when I was dying.
(And I was dying only a few weeks ago, so I know.)
Thankfully, as the day progressed I started feeling better. Especially after a little time with friends and family.
On Friday, February 7th, 2020 my morning was pretty good. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
My favorite song in the world
When I want to look inward, I listen to this song. Hundreds of my drawings and art pieces have been created while listening to this song. There are lines that bring me to tears almost every time I listen. I almost didn’t want to share it, because I want to pretend I’m the only one in the world who’s heard it.
The Trapeze Swinger by Iron & Wine
Listen and tell me nothing. ❤
